June 29, 2010

Time for a Change

I have struggled for sometime with discontentment. If it was b/c I thought we didnt stack up with it came to our place in society or that I didnt think our stuff was new or nice enough. I was constantly comparing and than feeling crummy for comparing. 
I was convicted by the Lord that this attitude needed to stop. That I needed to trust that he knew exactly what I needed and would give me exactly what he thought was best for me. If I was mad at the lack of things I would have to realize I was mad at God for not giving them to me. That is a wrong attitude. So wrong. I have prayed forgiveness for my sinful attitude. Thats what it is you know sinful. Its a commandment. Do not covet!!!! I was coveting all over the place. I asked the Lord to forgive that attitude and to grant me an attitude of contentment. I am not saying this to boast as its very humbling to admit my failure. However, I am just a sinner saved by grace and that is all!!! I cant earn it and will never earn it. I just fall back on the Lord's open arms and thank him for taking me and forgiving me when I fail him so miserably. How would we feel if we gave our children something than all they did was complain that it wasnt as nice as the kids down the road or said okay whats next when is the next thing coming...so wrong..and that was me...

Now do i think I have this thing licked and will never struggle again with it ..hardly...but at least I see the issue and am trying to focus more on my relationship with the Lord than anything else.

For where my heart is there my treasure is also..


10 comments:

Aimee said...

Just so you know, I envy you. I know we shouldn't "envy" so maybe I should say "look up to" and that's because you do seem content and happy. You have a beautiful home, a great family, you are a great mom and wife, you love the Lord and trust Him. You are honest and kind and I think that if you are feeling this way, you should stop because you have more of an upper hand than most people I know. Good for you though for recognizing this and giving it to God.

Brandie said...

ohhhh how sweet! this means so much to me. I "envy" "look up to you" too. I think in a way this is good. I mean we are to mentor each other and in a way it is good that we look up to each other....

Natalie said...

I love when people open up and write honestly...raw...even about things that aren't easy to "say" in real life. You did that. Your words are beautiful!

Brandie said...

oh thanks, it means so much to me that people are reading and getting something from my blog :) I enjoy your blog too Natalie.

Jes said...

Wonderfully said.. I think it is something we all struggle with..

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JDaniel4's Mom said...

Stopping from Mom Loop. I loved your post. I learned from your lessons.

cooperl788 said...

Stopping by from Mom Loop. I thought this post was a real and honest look at the struggles that everyone goes through in their personal lives. But that's the blessing of God's love - that he is always waiting with open arms to accept you and love you. Though humbling, saying it out loud on the blog probably has helped others.

Hannah said...

Stopping by from Mom Loop. This was beautifully said, it is definitely something we all struggle with at times. But you are right through God we can have contentment. I am glad I found your blog, I have really enjoyed your writing.

Liz said...

Brandie, you're not alone is this struggle. You worded exactly how I feel at times. I think when it comes to the very core of being happy in life it has to be centered less on things and more in God. I think it's ok to want more but not to expect fulfillment from those things.
BTW..i found your blog on mom loop.

Brandie said...

Thank you all so much for leaving such sweet comments! cant wait to check out all your blogs :)
Brandie