I have been having such a hard time lately thinking and racking my brain about what is my dream? and furthermore...am I living it.
When I was growing up I didnt ever dream of being a nurse like most little girls. I didnt really think of doing much but being a mom and wife. I did think for a little while of being some sort of counselor b/c when I was going through some tough times when I was a teenager I went to a counselor and it helped me get through it easier. However, having a set career/life path was never something I was really set one way or another.
I married young, had kids young. I dont regret that for one moment. However, I am at a place in my life now that I am wondering what now? I mean my kids still need me for sure. I am not "done" being mom by any means. Nor am I "done" being a wife. No these things will always be the center most important purposes of my life.
However, I am wondering if there is something else I could do, that would be a way I could give to those around me and share in ways that I am gifted. I love to write. This blog is a way to share my love of the written word. However, do I want to go further with that. If so how. I have no idea. I would love to write for some sort of column or devotional. I love writing. I dont know if I am talented enough for others to want to read what I write in more of a form besides a simple short blog.
So, these are the things that I am thinking. What else is there for me to do. Am I doing it already. Should I be satisfied and happy with what I am and not try to strive to do more. My hubby says I already have a full time job and focus in being a mom and wife and taking care of our house...I just dont know.
Pray with me about this :)